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Thursday, 26 February 2009

so i have a theory about this here xanga and the way it functions.

does anyone on here REALLY want to read other peoples' and form a circle of friends. well, probably some people, i suppose. but for the most part it seems that everyone just wants a bunch of people to come and comment on their blog, so that they can feel validated or like they have a ton of friends. and then there are the people who write blogs about their day to day life. a journal of their own that maybe friends or family read; a way to keep in touch and let people know what is going on in my life.

i know that for me this blog is a way for me to write out thoughts that i wouldn't write in the other xanga that i have. the other xanga is for my friends from high school that i don't see anymore because of college, my mom, and my sister. its how we see what everyone else is up to and chat. seems reasonable. but with that xanga, i don't want random people reading it and i don't want to read random blogs. with this xanga, i want to write and if people read it cool and its also my xanga that i can use to comment on the occasional blog that catches my eye.

it seems like this is an addictive site that people could become severely depressed due to lack of validation via comments. and yes, that actually happens. its like every comment is a present; a sign that somebody out there cares about what you have to say. and who doesn't want to have someone hear them. really hear them. but thats not what is going on here. people comment so that other people will come to their site. for their need for validation.

i don't think many people ever really listen, on xanga or in real life. it is something that i strive for but certainly fail to succeed more often that i actually do succeed.

there's a quote about when people think you're dying they listen and don't just wait for their turn to speak.

hmm...are we listening or waiting?

Wednesday, 28 January 2009

Have you ever had a bad experience with a roommate? How did you deal with the problem?

My freshman year in college I had a roommate who hated me right from the start because she thought that I was gay. One day my best friend went down to her room and her roommate had suddenly moved out without notifying anyone. Needless to say in a matter of a half an hour I moved into her room (down a floor) and my crazy ex-roommate was sweeping the floor before i even got all the way out. We are seniors now and she still hasn't gotten over anything and gives me dirty looks. it doesn't phase me though, i think it's funny and i laugh about it everytime I see her.

I just answered this Featured Question; you can answer it too!

Friday, 23 January 2009

so obama is the new president. personally i couldn't be happier. i think that he is what the nation needs right now. he does not promise immediate change but he inspires hope in the majority of the country.
what i don't understand in these times is why everyone can't wait to see him fail. this is one country after all and we shouldn't be setting our president up for failure. whether you support him or not he is now your president. its like america has this twisted mindset, the same with all celebrities, we want to see their failures; we want to watch them fall from grace. we take an awfully great pleasure in seeing people take a fall.
i also don't understand the idea that when someone doesn't agree with you they are immediately ignorant and uneducated. calling people who disagree with you ignorant seems a bit, well, ignorant to me. just because they don't have the same opinion as you does not make them ignorant, rather it makes them someone who has different interests in what they think a president should be. religious folks want a president that holds their religion to the same regard. whether that is best for the country or not in reality it is what they believe. they are therefore not necessarily ignorant, just interested in different things.
now, people who listen to anne coulter and think that she speaks truthfully and only get their information from fox news, i would feel justified in saying that they are ignorant. to form an opinion on something, listening to the most conservative obnoxious woman on the planet, or watching the most biased news source there is, is not the best plan of attack. however if that is how you choose to go about your life then more power to you, just please don't try to push your opinions on me because i choose to support our president and have faith in him. until he does something bad and shows that all the doubters were right, then i am going to believe that he really has what is best for the country in mind. i also choose to believe in global warming and equal rights.

Wednesday, 21 January 2009

here i go

i feel like i have something to say. not in a conceited way. i just feel like i have some things that i want to say and whether anyone reads this or not, at least i will have put them out there. everyone has something to say, its just a matter of actually saying it.
i'm the kind of person that is quiet, most of the time. i'm in my own world thinking. and while i am terrible at public speaking, this takes the speaking out of the equation and therefore makes it much more appealing for me.
i think this will give me a place to try out my voice and to think deeper about things that i feel are important for me to dive into more than i have in the past. i want to figure out who it is i am, and how i fall into the grander scheme of things and maybe by writing my thoughts down will help me to accomplish that.
with that said,
here comes xanga.